Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Today's appointment was quite the reassurance that I needed. It is so hard this go around. Last time....we had appointments every week due to the fact that we were carrying twins and I had the whole Lupus thing going on. Well...this time around is different. The appointments are about 4 weeks apart and the ultrasounds about 6-8 weeks apart. I know...I have been spoiled. Today we heard the heartbeat....a good strong heartbeat. The beat was around 150-160 and sounded great!!! It was so comforting to hear. Dr. Holsten listened as I discussed my fatigue, aches, my stress that I carry (my own fault) and other questions about the lupus meds, etc. She gave me some advice....suggestions to rest and to try and relax more. It is just not easy with my personality first, having twins second, and living between two homes and constantly on the road. We are praying God's direction in all of that and I am beginning to find comfort in letting go and letting HIM take the reins....as hard as that is for me. Those of you that know me know I am a type A personality and love order, plans, schedules, routines, etc. NO Surprises please!!! Well....all in all we are so very blessed and I am most thankful for all the chaos in my life as LIFE IS GOOD!!!! God is Good!!! Thank you for your prayers...please keep them coming. We have our next appt in 4 weeks and an ultrasound in 6 weeks.....can't wait! We hope to find out the sex....for now, Baby Smith is our little "it". Hugs and blessings!!!